I had a dream this week, that was similar to some I’ve had through the years. In this dream I was under pressure from several tasks, needs of people, and had experienced some losses (current and past). I could not accomplish my tasks, please the people, or reach my destination, (which was related to the losses). So, I began to weep, cry, and sob in a release of deep emotion. I woke up exhausted and tired from weeping and mourning. In my dream I was not comforted by the weeping, but rather it was the expending of what little strength and energy that remained within me. It seemed to symbolize that I had given up – succeeded to failure, and the tears were the physical manifestation of my last hopes and desires draining away in drops of liquid emotion.
Given that I had this type of dream before, I was wondering what meaning it might hold. For insight I opened the Bible to Acts 27:27 which recounts the shipwreck in Paul’s journey to Rome. He faces similar constraints of wanting to keep everyone alive (prisoners and Roman guards), reach Rome, and be delivered from his charges and chains. He faces it all with faith in God and the knowledge that he was in God’s hands, and in God’s service and protection. After prayer, Paul led all 276 shipmates safely from the stormy sea; found help from the Islands inhabitants; he was bitten by a snake, but unharmed; he healed all who were sick on the island. Yet, in Rome he was not released and he could only convince a few of his Jewish brothers that Yeshua is Messiah. Did Paul weep? Yes, in Romans 9:2 he wept for Israel, saying, “I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart.”